08/06/2024
hello again internet people! hope everyone is doing well. i know i made an entry last night (which was technically this morning...) but here i am writing again. you, my lovely website, are at this point my personal little diary. thus the name, i guess. therapy today went real good, i got to experience a large wave of emotions i was feeling about my impending move and then realize how excited i really am about all of it beyond the anxiety. part of that realization maaaaaayyyy have stemmed from the realization that my single ass finds irish and scottish accents super attractive.
i've been binge watching archer the past threeish days and im about to finish it. im so bad with finishing shows though... i always cry, and i know when i cry this time all the emotions are gonna come out in a flood ;-; i guess it's a nice alternative to tripping in order to feel out all my trauma, which i was planning on doing like.... last week before i dealt with the traumatic experience. there are two episodes where voice actors for specific characters have passed away and they do a little in memorium and it just breaks my heart every time. i know i won't handle the end of this stupid little show well.
tomorrow i have my going away party, which i'm not totally prepared for but hey, what fun is a party if it isn't a little hastily thrown together? it'll be a nice way to cap off my little mini-bender. i'm really going to enjoy getting absolutely shithoused with my best friends one more time before i go off to europe for pretty much half a year. goddamn it i am gonna miss them so much. not to mention my cats. those thoughts are the ones that make me tear up, really, as opposed to being scared of new experiences. i can handle all that shit, what i can't handle is being away from the people i love. i just have to hope that the experience is worth the temporary pain and longing.
anyway, this is me signing off so i can go get a little more drunk, watch some archer, and fall into a lovely, deep slumber before i go wreck my liver tomorrow night.
forever yours,
willow